It’s 9:30AM and I’m still awake. I didn’t sleep all night again due to my shopping compulsion, and I’m not even tired. I think the screen kills all the melatonin in my brain. I don’t know what my dad makes of my erratic hours, up all night and even during the morning now. I went to use the bathroom at the other end of the house and heard the neighbour making noise with a whipper snipper or something again. They will make noise as soon as they are legally able to. It really distressed me, especially as I have told them I am sick, have trouble sleeping at night and need to sleep during the day. It distresses me to the point I have nightmares about being woken by them now. I need the safety of being able to sleep when I can without being woken by a selfish, privileged prick. Continue reading “Confusing feelings about an abusive relationship” →