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I thought I’d write a quick post. Nothing particularly eventful has happened, just the same old shit. My physical and mental issues continue to wear away at me, like water eroding rock. I have a new buzzing sensation on my left ankle and the same buzzing sensation on my head which I’ve had for years now since taking Effexor. Yesterday the buzzing and my tremor were particularly bad for some reason. I still managed to upload some new badges to my etsy site which a friend designed. So it was a torturous yet productive day. I can barely do anything these days. I can’t clean up, and there is now a funky smell in my bedroom. Now that I’m not seeing my disability support worker, who used to get me out of the house twice a week, I have nothing to get up for all week. I rarely get dressed or leave the house and when I’m not sleeping I just sit at the computer. I sit on the computer all night as I procrastinate brushing my teeth and going to bed. I then take meds at sunrise so I can sleep. On Christmas at around 9am I took some diazepam and 10mg of olanzapine, the drug I have just weaned myself off from. It seemed to do the trick and I slept all day until 8:30pm. I slept through the picnic my family had planned. So I had no Christmas, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. I hate Christmas and was glad to sleep through it. Continue reading “Update: physical issues and writing from age 13” →

I have to pick my brain apart to remember the last few weeks. All I know is that they have been absolute hell. My sleep, as usual, is messed up. I remember one night sitting up all night bombing my poor GP’s inbox with angry emails. I must have sent her at least twenty emails that night. It was as though a lid had been lifted in me and it was all coming out. I was still going at 8am. The buzzing sensation on my head, which I first noticed when I was given Effexor many years ago, was tormenting me. I told her that if I was still awake at 9am I would be going to the hairdressers to shave my head. I had a few pictures of partially shaved hair cuts saved on my phone to show the hairdressers. I was thinking they could just shave the part where the buzzing is and make it look edgy and trendy. Unfortunately, though, I’m not sure I’d look that great without a fringe because my forehead is big. I told my GP that this makes sense as I’m really an alien. I’m not sure what she made of it all. Continue reading “Sleep issues, nervous system issues, tremor, sick” →

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Update: physical issues and writing from age 13

Sleep issues, nervous system issues, tremor, sick